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The HeartBreak Industry

by The HeartBreak Industry

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1.
suicide 03:25
Each and everyday, They’ve got something new to say, And it’s starting, To get in my way. Cause I think about the past, And, There’s no moving past that, it’s starting to drive me insane. Yes I feel like a burden, But I don’t know why. Everyday that I wake up, I wish I would die. So Go Go, Everybody hates me, And it’s starting to show. So Go Go, What do you know about me? Each and every time, That I get a second try, I gotta go and fuck things up this time. So I’m begging for forgiveness, God said, “You gotta listen. Everything will be just fine.” Still, I feel suicide, On the back of my mind. These white pills, By my beside, They tempt me every night. So Go Go, Everybody hates me, And it’s starting to show. So Go Go, What do you know about me? What do you know about me?
2.
scream 03:23
I’m gonna take this back, To those days that we first met. We were smoking cigarettes, And laughing at the pain, We shared. I remember it all, Like it was all just yesterday, Before you slowly pushed me away, With every fucking choice you’d make. I guess. I guess. So, I apologize for everything, You said to me. Cause I know that, You’d never do that independently. So, I apologize for all the times, You screamed at me. Cause once was enough, And two’s way too much, By the third time, I’m just gonna scream back too. I remember in September, When they sent me away. Locked me up in a room, And there was no escape. So I, Just cried away the night, And prayed. I remember it all, Like it was all just yesterday. I really wish I could escape, From this story I call “My Days”. Please end. Please end. I couldn’t have fixed us if I tired, But believe me I did, The best that I could. I failed. So, I apologize for everything, You said to me. Cause I know that, You’d never do that independently. So, I apologize for all the times, You screamed at me. Cause once was enough, And two’s way too much, By the third time, I’m just gunna scream back too. So, I apologize for everything, You said to me. Cause I know that, You’d never do that independently. So, I apologize for all the times, You screamed at me. Cause once was enough, And two’s way too much, By the third time, I’m just gonna scream back too. Cause once was enough, And two’s way too much, By the third time, I’m just gonna scream back too.
3.
god 02:58
Hey there, It’s me again. Coming in with the wind, And a palm full of sins, That I can’t seem to forgive. Hey there, Are you still my friend? Cause I know not what I did, And I know not what I said, This I can’t seem to forgive, Me. Yet I, Will always love you. Even if you don’t, Love me too. And I, Swear I’ll, Always Miss you. Even if you don’t, Miss me too. Cause that’s just the way it is. Oh dear God, What have I done? I just drank from the poison, Knowing what I could become. Oh dear God, Is there hope for me? Or is everything, So consequential? Yet I, Will always love you. Even if you don’t, Love me too. And I, Swear I’ll, Always Miss you. Even if you don’t, Miss me too. Cause that’s just the way it is. Yeah that’s just the way it is. When you have to live with, All your consequences. Oh dear God, Is there hope for me? Or will I just sink, Into the ocean?
4.
why_ 02:47
So carry, The weight of my world, On the tops of your shoulders, While I’m just getting older, Realizing you’re long gone. So bury, Me beneath your skin. So you can crucify, While you justify, Treating me like this. While I’m asking, Why? Why? Why? And i’ve been thinking everyday, Trying to find the words to say, That I feel like, You don’t give a fuck about me Now I speak of you in past-tense, Tell me how do I move past this? When I’m just left, Always wondering this Why do I put up with this? Why do you treat me this way? I’m asking, Why? Why? Why?
5.
two seven 03:34
Never fit in with the crowd, Always let everyone down, Always seem to get back up, Prove them wrong, With obnoxious sounds. Never fit in with the crowd, I like it better safe and sound, As I live a life all alone, No ones home, But my heart for the crowd, Is written in stone. As I live a life, So hopelessly lost, But my love for the lights, Is gleaming from my soul. As I live a life, Wishing to be gone, But my love for the people, Is more than my own. I wish I grew up more like you, Safe and secure like a tool. I wish I could be fixed, By true loves only kiss, But that fix of bliss, Isn’t true. I wish I grew up less depressed, I wish my mom was never dead, But sometimes we get a hand full of cards, 2-7 is the best that you’ve ever got. Never fit in with the crowd, Always let everyone down, Always seem to get back up, And prove them wrong, With quiet voices Never fit in with the crowd, I like me better somehow, So if you’ve got a question, Go ask someone else, I’m no help and I’ll never be now So if you’ve got a question, Please direct your attention, To someone who’s better off now So if you’ve got a question, I might have an answer, But my answer might let you down. I wish I grew up more like you, Safe and secure like a tool. I wish I could be fixed, By true loves only kiss, But that fix of bliss, Isn’t true. I wish I grew up less depressed, I wish my mom was never dead, But sometimes we get a hand full of cards, 2-7 is the best that you’ve ever got.

about

This album wasn’t supposed to exist. I wrote it the first week of July after going through a major depressive episode. I spent constant days thinking about suicide, how I attempted it multiple times in the past, the way I let people treat me badly, my relationship with God, every mistake I ever made, and I struggled very hard with the idea that I’m a bad person. It’s very heartbreaking to think about yourself in such a low way because the people you thought loved you, actually despised you, and wanted to watch you fail. I couldn’t wrap my head around that and everything going on around me, so I collapsed. The only thing I could do was lay in bed, staring at the ceiling or write music. That’s where this album comes from. I contemplated hard about releasing this because of how personal it is, but I’ve decided that it’s something that helped me, and I’m hoping that it can resonate with anyone else who is going through a tough time. Currently, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been, and I wrote these songs 6 months ago. A lot can change in such a short time when you learn how to hold yourself accountable for your actions, stop blaming others for your mistakes, develop good habits and self-talk, and actually take the necessary steps to make sure you live your best life. This album wasn’t supposed to exist, but I’m glad it does because it was the only thing there for me when I was at my absolute rock bottom and then some I wouldn’t be alive without this album. Thanks for listening, I hope you find some comfort knowing you’re not alone out there.

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released December 22, 2020

All instrumentation and vocals by Jeffery Lubin
Produced, mixed, and mastered by Jeffery Lubin at 234 Studios
Additional Mastering by Carlos Jimenez


Album art by Frances Mesko
Additional photography by Josh Garcia
Graphic design by Carlos Jimenez


Recorded at 234 Studios in San Antonio, Tx.
Released via Temporary Animation Records

©2020 The HeartBreak Industry
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The HeartBreak Industry was formed in 2020 by Jeffrey Lubin of Gleaming Streets. Tackling subject matters like suicide, isolation, and depression The HeartBreak Industry's doesn't hold back with his raw emotional lyrics juxtaposed with catchy indie riffs. ... more

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